Welcome 40

In letting go of the fear,

there’s a softness in the release,

A quiet sigh of surrender,

I entered a new life,

a life of sleepless nights and partying 

a life of reckless driving,

a world of abusive drinking & illicit drugs, 

I quickly found myself though,

the weight I carried, 

day by day,

A burden heavy on the heart,

I took a lighter step,

A brand new start,

in early adulthood,

embracing her in my arms, 

I said goodbye to my 20s in the blink of an eye,

gripping their tiny fingers, 

each by my side.

Now drifting in the tender breeze,

I entered my 30s so fast that I could cry,

For a long time,

I held on tight to what once was,

Fingers clasped around the past,

Repeated memories of things that used to be,

Pictures that showed a younger me,

letting go of those who wished me harm,

Accepting that time doesn’t stop,

It calls us forth, 

Telling us to free the grip,

And let the past, pass

letting go doesn't have to be so hard

it is almost a necessity,

letting go is not the end,

But a new beginning,

A journey full of promises,

A journey into the unknown.

I am letting go…