Shadows of Strength

     

Amidst a pain, piercing and unclear,

I fight, affirmations to quell the fear,

As I leave my home, a brave façade,

But tears well up, emotions unthawed.

The drive seems endless, pain unfolds,

Tears flow freely, I can't withhold,

South Minisink Avenue, I near,

Red lights flash, my thoughts unclear.

A gush of warmth, panic in my heart,

A slow, steady stream, a painful start,

Sobbing uncontrollably, I stand,

Familiar faces lend a helping hand.

Wanda, an angel, whispers in my ear,

She calls for help, calms my fear,

In the hospital room, sedated and weak,

Not physical pain, but the pain no one dare to speak.

My body rejected, my fourth unborn,

A deep loss, a wound still torn,

Guilt and questions, they cloud my mind,

But with support and love, I'll seek and find.

Gifts and cards, from friends they came,

Yet some may question, and cast blame,

My mind, a powerful tool, indeed,

Consumed by thoughts that make me bleed.

Yet, I'm grateful for those by my side,

On that day, when I cried and cried,

Though memories remain, vivid and clear,

I know I'm not alone, my grief to bear.

For those who've shared this painful plight,

Seek support, find strength, find the light,

No guilt or shame should burden you,

Find someone to lean on, they'll see you through.

You are not alone, your pain is real,

Together, we'll find a way to heal,

So don't lose hope, find support, take flight,

With love and understanding, we'll find our light.